another quote.

feel proud of every worth of effort invested.

my words.

god created life on earth or not.
man, lions, monkeys and even the pet lizard in your house, etc.
regardless of gender, wealth, health, appearance, character.
we are all equal.
treat everyone fairly.
this will be the new world as time passes by each and every second.
where every single living creature will be treated equally.

chik-kens

my laptop got confiscated.

i was sick on friday 20th july 2007. i rested til i recuperated and i went out with someone X and Y. i feel very troubled everyday. since that is the problem i used ss as a way to relieve my stress. now that my parents think i did not attend school because i "pretended" to be sick which after i went out on that day, they confiscated my bloody laptop. how now? i feel like going to hell. without my laptop beside me, i felt a sudden pain in my heart. its like a thousand knife piercing through my vulnerable heart. i felt the ache greatly, how could i withstand this torment? can someone please save me and release my soul from this wretched me.

tiredness.

today kts and i skipped school, cause we very the tired after emo-ing and watching porn together after draft match. watch until eyes pain.

no one cares about me..

today was a fucked up day. i woke up late, went to sch late. i screwed every fucking thing up.! omg im so emo. damn sad i hate my life i wanna go and die so i think i gona go slit my fucking wrist now and say gdbye to this fucking world.

A Day At School

Today was a tired day at school. Woke up and brushed my teeth, before going to school. Everything is falling apart....sigh.

Monday Blues

BCA STARTS AT 1345. WILL THERE BE ANY EMO SEEDLINGS LATER? LETS FIND OUT LATER JAJAA

Emo Seedling

Last day I arrived my work an hour and a half late because of the very crowded road near the gate's check point …
An old woman and 10 years old boy with school bag on his back were waiting for me.
I treated the old lady first, and then asked the boy to get in. He was pale & shaking. He sat on the dental chair and pointed inside his mouth, and said "this is very painful".
I looked and saw nothing, I knew he was confused and pointed to the wrong side; I looked to the opposite side and saw a badly carious tooth.
I told him that we need to extract this tooth, he shake his head for approval.
"But we need to have the approval from some one older than you my dear" I said. "Any one from your family as your parents, older brother or sister, aunt, uncle, or even a neighbor ".I added.

He stepped from the chair in an attempt to leave, with his eyes full of tears, and said nothing.
-"Are you coming back with someone later? I asked.
-"no, I have no one".
-"With whom do you live?".
-"With my younger brother, he is Mongolian".
-I grip his shaky hands and took him to the patio, and asked him to look around, to the other functionaries; (they live in the same village), and asked him if he knew any one?.
Few minutes later he pointed to a man, he was one of the servants" H".
I sent for" H", and told him that I need some one of Salih' relatives because his tooth need to be extracted. He said "I am his fathers' cousin, I can stay with him because he has no One close…his older brother who was taking care of him was murdered 3 days ago"…
-why?
- He was a policeman…
-"Are you hungry, did you have your breakfast honey?" I asked Salih trying so hard to hold my tears.( I had to ask because he was pale and he could show symptoms of hypoglycemia if he was hungry, he could faint too after dental treatment).
- " no I did not , the neighbors did not bring us any". he said.
Just then I could not hold my tears any more, I took his little hands and took him to buy him something to eat.
-"let us buy something to eat, I am hungry too" ..
-" no, I will go home" said Salih pointing to a far cottage..
- I will take him to my place, bring him something to eat, and be right back"…said" H".
But the boy ran away….
I sat in my room, wondering how could these children survive. How could they live alone, what do they do in the darkness every day? Where is our government, are they aware about that policeman's family….
I can't imagine my daughter Mariam (she is 8 now) go alone to a dental clinic to extract her tooth ….it's scary for a child to face that alone.
After about an hour the boy came back with "H", he ate in his house and came seeking for treatment, I was so happy to see him again, I wanted to give him a big hug, but he was behaving like a man.. He sat silently, I gave him his shot, he was shivering, but was very quiet.
I told him he will not feel any thing he will be anesthetized, he nod his head, I extracted his tooth, and then he went without any word…..

Clear blue sky and drifting clouds

Feeling lonely, feeling sad. no one's there to encourage me,
No one's there to share my pain. I can only live on in this nightmare world.

i m a emo kid.

bigfatcow

mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! looks like you darren.

Oh No! im so emo.

bout to cry cause mom spanked my butt